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Day 05 - My definition of love

To be honest, I don’t know how I’d define love.   Everyone has their own definition and experience with love, and when you’ve experienced it, it’s kind of hard to put into words even more.

If I had to define it, I’d say:

Love isn’t just something you feel, it’s something you see and hear as well.  Love is something you are passionate about whether it’s a person, place, thing, hobby, etc.

One of my profs last year said “When you’re miserable and extremely happy at the same time, that’s when you know you’re truly in love. “
Fortunately and unfortunately,  I experienced that and I think it’s true.   No love is gonna be cookie cutter perfect, but it can be your perfect.

Love is in all of us and in everything.
It’s simply a beautiful thing.

xox

Ayebaybay ♥

Day 04 - What you ate today

Not sure why this is important, or even needs a day’s post…but whatever.

Today I ate:
An English muffin with cheese and salami  - breakfast

A sub from Subway - lunch

A couple kobe meatballs - snack

A sub from Mr. Sub - dinner

Not the healthiest lol

xox

Ayebaybay ♥

Day 03 - My parents

So I’m doing this one pretty late because I really couldn’t be bothered to do it earlier :P

This one is just gonna be short and sweet since the others were novels, haha.

My mum is the best. My rock. My fanclub lol. My role model.
Even though I get mad at her, I couldn’t ask for anyone else to by my mum. I love her to infinity.

My dad is…well… not really in my life.
He caused a lot of problems in my family when I was growing up and still kinda does so he’s not really in the picture.
It’s a very complicated story that only few know the most about.
I will say he is still my dad, and I love him.

See, short and sweet.. kinda :P
I’m signing off now.

xox

Ayebaybay ♥

Day 01 - Introduce yourself

Sup bru.

My name is Ebehi.
I dunno if that’s enough of an introduction so maybe I’ll ramble a bit.

People that know me well enough would probably say that I’m a music and sports junkie.

I’m that girly girl who loves sports that, stereotypically, guys mostly watch. I don’t really care though.  I love my sports.

Music. That’s been a part of my life since day one. I’ve been singing since I was 5 and haven’t stopped. I was also a dancer…yes believe it or not, I was a dancer.

I’m very soft-spoken and will often keep to myself, but when I’m with my friends…you cannot shut me up.

I don’t wanna toot my own horn but I think I’m pretty damn smart ;)
I will be honest, sometimes I say things that make me sound stupid on purpose because I don’t like having to always be the intellectual people expect me to be.
And also it gets people to laugh and I love when people are happy and laughing.

I like to consider myself a British-Canadian so if you hear me with an accent one day or something and not the next…don’t be surprised lol

I said I’d ramble and I did.
I don’t wanna give my whole life story.
You ever wanna know more about me…ask.
I don’t bite ; P

xox

Ayebaybay ♥ 

Day 02 - My first love

My first love huh?

If you’re talking about a passion, that’d be music and singing. Like I said before, been part of my life since I was 5.

If you’re talking about a person, let’s call him “The Rock” (it’s his fav wrestler).  And he knows already and so do my best friends.

The story:
I met him when I was in grade 10, and pretty much fell for him when we started talking.  And then I found out he was in a relationship and kinda tried to put my feelings on the back burner.  He became one of my best friends and I was there for him as much as I could be whenever he needed someone.
As hard as I tried to not crush on him, I still did. (My friends can attest to that).  He was sweet, funny, sarcastic, athletic, handsome as hell, liked the same things I did.  There’s more to that list, but I don’t need you falling for him too ;) lmao  He was just plain amazing to me.
Anyways, fast forward and there were a lot of ups and downs.  Kinda like a bad roller coaster (or just a normal roller coaster in my case since I don’t like them lol).  Things got tough for me just kinda sitting on the sidelines and then having these kinda flirty moments.
I really don’t wanna get into big details so from this, I’ll just speed to this past year.
I found out he has been in love with me, and honestly… I had no clue.  He’s not the best at showing emotions (he admits it).  So I flabbergasted and also extremely happy when he told me.  It’s like that person you’ve been wanting finally wants you.. and has been wanting you too, but wouldn’t say anything.  Not gonna lie, it was both amazing and frustrating.  The way he told me was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard.
Anywhozers, things were good for a bit and then we started getting in these fights and stuff went to shit really fast and horribly.  No one has ever made me feel in love with them and made me cry so much at the same time.  I know you’re thinking well that’s not good.  But it’s complicated - and that’s not a cop-out.
And still is.
This may sound silly, but we never dated, and I dunno if we ever will.
I dunno if we’ll ever go back to “normal” whatever our normal is.
Things got SOOO messed up, I feel like I’m in limbo.

We haven’t spoken in a while so, yeah.
That’s the long, yet short (surprisingly, yes that is a short version) of my first love.

If you were to ask me if I miss him, I’d be lying if I said no.
He’s made a pretty big impact on my life - good and bad.

This wasn’t easy for me to do…at all.
Holy balls.

Well that’s it I guess.

xox
Ayebaybay ♥

From my draft vault lmao.

Morning all.

So I was talking to one of my best friends on the phone late last night, and we were talking about how people live in such a fantasy world, but are to blind to the reality that they pretty much think that’s all there is.  It was a really bad night of events to the point where I was shaking from frustration, so this is kind of a way of releasing that stress/anger instead of bottling it up like I usually do.

I kinda ranted on Twitter already, so I’m just transferring it over.

" So apparently freedom of speech doesn’t exist anymore. You try and state how you feel and all of a sudden you’re labelled as #dramatic.  What a great world we live in where you can’t even get answers or express how you feel without being bitched at.  Sorry if you live in a perfect world where you get everything you want, but I live in the real world where shit happens and you have to deal.  It sucks to see the real side of someone, but if you’re being ‘ridiculed’ for something totally absurd, you need to figure out what’s important.  Would you rather: be in a friendship where you see the real world for what it is and they’re so blind to it that to them there’s something always wrong with you? OR would you rather live life without being patronized for being human? It may be a hard choice, but it’s your life. “

I am in no way depressed.  You may think that by reading this or my statuses, but I like my life.  I have a family that loves me; I have true friends that care about me; I have best friends that I would do anything for and that is mutual; I have a school that I feel safe in; I have the gift of voice that I’m lucky to have; and I have a roof over my head, food to eat and clothing to wear.  Sure, my life can be as crappy as all hell (which for some reason, this year, it is), but i wouldn’t change it for the world.

To be honest, I’m just getting tired of people, and especially the people that intentionally or even unintentionally try and bring be down because I’ve let that happen in my life too much; and I’m not gonna keep standing for it.

-  Anyways, that’s it from me.
Hope everyone has a good day :)

P.S. MAKE THE MOST OF YOUR LIFE 

xox.
Ayebaybay ♥ 

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